Sunday, October 13th, 2024-Thoughts on Life

      Today, I contemplate on how hard life can be sometimes, especially when it comes to unanticipated let downs and dissapointments.

     I have worked hard for a majority of my life, and continue to do so so much that there are certain aspects of my life I have let pass me by. One of the things I vowed to change about that, was to go on more trips outside of my immediate bubble of North Brunswick, NJ and Wappingers Falls, NY. I planned a trip and went on an amazing one in May of 2024, to Utah and when that was done, I planned an anticipated trip for October 2024, to Maine.

     I am going to pick my son, Caiden, up from his mother's house today to spend the day with him as I have been so focused on studying for my potential promotion to Lieutenant after 2025, in an effort to better my life and the lives of others. I am anticipating (but learning to not) having a great day seeing my son and catching up. One of my biggest issues is going into situations with expectations, and this is something I continue to struggle with no matter how hard I work on it.

     The lesson for all of this, is no matter what his mother's response is to this trip that has been in the planning stages since May, is to not have expectations of what her response will be and no matter what it is, accept it. I am hoping and praying she allows me to experience this trip with my son, but will not be dissapointed or hurt regardless of her answer. That is truly dropping my expectations, now lets see if I can achieve it. Have a great day all!