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Sunday, October 13th, 2024-Thoughts on Life

      Today, I contemplate on how hard life can be sometimes, especially when it comes to unanticipated let downs and dissapointments.      I have worked hard for a majority of my life, and continue to do so so much that there are certain aspects of my life I have let pass me by. One of the things I vowed to change about that, was to go on more trips outside of my immediate bubble of North Brunswick, NJ and Wappingers Falls, NY. I planned a trip and went on an amazing one in May of 2024, to Utah and when that was done, I planned an anticipated trip for October 2024, to Maine.      I am going to pick my son, Caiden, up from his mother's house today to spend the day with him as I have been so focused on studying for my potential promotion to Lieutenant after 2025, in an effort to better my life and the lives of others. I am anticipating (but learning to not) having a great day seeing my son and catching up. One of my biggest issues is going int...

Cinco De Chango 2024

      May 5th, 2024 and I think to myself that the world has been changing everyday, sometimes the changes are good and sometimes the changes are bad. Right now, I feel that the world has been changing into a bad spot and forces above the everyday human being are trying to get us to fight against one another.      In order to eliminate a lot of that noise, I have deleted all of my social media shortcuts on my phone. My social media accounts still exist, but will only be checked once a day just to stay in touch with friends, family and see what is happening in their lives when I cannot talk with them everyday. I also blame the technology and cell phones for a lack of communication between people. With that being said, I also have chosen to limit the amount of time I spend on the phone for things other than a phone call.      I hope these subtle changes will bring me back into a positive thought process and continuing in a good direction, as I ...

Christmas Eve 2023 Thoughts

      Sunday, December 24th, 2023 and this year has been one of the loneliest years of Christmas Eve I have ever experienced. This was the very first year since my son, Caiden was born that he has not wanted to spend time with me leading up to this day. I think I should have expected this, considering he is 12 years old and entering that pre-teen to teenager phase and will want to separate from me more and more as I will "cramp his style." With that being said, its still does not make it easy on me as I do not have much family around anymore to spend the holidays with. My brother, Adam, lives more than 3 hours away in Saugerties, NY and much like I do, spends a majority of his weeks working.       Another thing that has added to me being depressed this year is putting my love and heart into others. I have always put the needs of others before my own up until the halfway point of 2023. I then curbed my enthusiasm and began to put the needs of myself fir...

Humbling/Growing

One of the hardest things for me to grasp in my life, is to understand I cannot be good at everything I try to be good at. In order to overcome this, if it is something that matters to me, I will have to put continuous work into it. Once the work and effort are put into something, the thing that I was once not good at will move from the weakness column closer to the strength column. Repetition, Repetition, Repetition!!!

Tuesday Morning Thoughts

 "Not every person is born with all strengths nor with all weaknesses. Once you can admit you have a weakness in an area openly and work on it, to move it closer to a strength, you have already become stronger just through your growth process. Growth is not easy and the more you grow, the inherently stronger you become."

Monday Thoughts

      As human beings, we are given the opportunity each and everyday to try to impact this world. There are two ways we can do this, positively and negatively. If you want to influence the world in a positive manner, acknowledge your shortcomings and work on improving them daily, in turn do the same for others. If you want to influence the world in a negative manner, look at things through a biased lens, believe everyone is out to get you and do nothing to improve your situations, as well as work your hardest everyday to bring others down...the choice is yours and remember that everyday you rise up in the morning, let's have a great day :)