Christmas Eve 2023 Thoughts
Sunday, December 24th, 2023 and this year has been one of the loneliest years of Christmas Eve I have ever experienced. This was the very first year since my son, Caiden was born that he has not wanted to spend time with me leading up to this day. I think I should have expected this, considering he is 12 years old and entering that pre-teen to teenager phase and will want to separate from me more and more as I will "cramp his style." With that being said, its still does not make it easy on me as I do not have much family around anymore to spend the holidays with. My brother, Adam, lives more than 3 hours away in Saugerties, NY and much like I do, spends a majority of his weeks working. Another thing that has added to me being depressed this year is putting my love and heart into others. I have always put the needs of others before my own up until the halfway point of 2023. I then curbed my enthusiasm and began to put the needs of myself fir...